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Blog Series: The Many Faces of Perseverance Featuring Erin McCafferty

The Many Faces Of Perseverance Blog Series. I thought it would be nice to take the filter out of our daily lives and to be able to relate to many different people about struggles that we each face. I am learning everyday to embrace the struggles we go through, instead of fearing them. I am learning that everything we go through is putting us on our path and helping us grow. I am learning that even when its uncomfortable and hard that we are learning so much about ourselves and that our struggles are shaping us into a better version of ourselves. I hope you gain guidance, inspiration, and support from this series – Alexa

Erin what made you want to share your story?

I guess what i’m trying to say with my story is that even after the lowest points in life when all you can see is darkness there is ALWAYS a way out. You can do this thing called life. I promise.

Let me start this off by saying I am in no way shape or form a writer.  Writing things about myself that are so personal and things I really don’t tell people about makes me feel very vulnerable… so this should be interesting 🙂

Lets start way back in my life to begin my story. When I was 13 years old my father passed away suddenly and it was very hard for me to go through. I shoved the pain deep down and hid it because I didn’t know how to deal with it. Fast forward to when I was around 16-17 I started hanging out with the wrong people and eventually picked up a terrible drug habit. Which led me to enter a few rounds of rehab(3). After my last stay in those facilities I left and still continued to struggle with my addiction. Somehow my mother convinced me to move to Atlanta, Georgia with her. Thank god because I’m pretty sure it saved my life.

In Georgia I attended hair school and finished and moved on to even more schooling about hair, where I was doing very well. Then the week before the graduation of that school I found out I was pregnant, which sent me into deep depression. I didn’t know what to do. I had restarted my life and was finally on track and now this hit me like a bomb. I didn’t talk about it for months ignoring the topic whenever it was brought up. I began working at an amazing salon and the idea of being a mother grew on me. I could do this. During my pregnancy life was good, the best it has ever been.  My relationship with her father was going great. I had the job of my dreams working with some of the most inspiring and strong women I could surround myself with. Then the most amazing thing in my life happened to me, I had my daughter Paislee Mae Grace Duncan. It was pure bliss (at least for a little while) when the newness wore off me and her father started to not get along. I started realizing he wasn’t pulling his half of the weight and I resented him. Then on a visit back to Ohio things blew up between us and I broke it off and left him in Ohio.  At that point I began the long, hard, rewarding journey of being a single mother. I was again enjoying my life until my mother (who I was living with) decided to move back to Ohio and after a lot of thinking I realized financially, I had to go also. I had to move away from this amazing life I had made for myself, away from my dream job, and away from this place I had made my home. Moving back sent me into another wave of depression. For about a year all I did was sit at home with my daughter and go out and drink on the weekends to numb the sadness. Eventually I picked myself up and got a job at a daycare. I was happy at my job but every day when I got home reality hit me that I wasn’t happy. I was just dragging myself through life barely making it by. About a month ago I decided I had enough, I cant continue to live like this. Since then I have began to see a therapist, started doing yoga, and meditating. I’m currently still working on loving myself and living life instead of letting it pass me by. I can see my happy ending. The fog is lifting from this dark place that I have been in.  Again I realize that I can do this.

I guess what i’m trying to say with my story is that even after the lowest points in life when all you can see is darkness there is ALWAYS a way out. You can do this thing called life. I promise.

Erin McCafferty

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